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Showered By God's Love


We come to God for guidance, comfort, peace…whatever it may be.  When you think about it, how many times do we run to God for what He gives us? Give me a job, give me a spouse, give me, give me, give me.  This is a relationship, remember? Think of any friendship or relationship you’ve ever had.  If you go up to that person and say make me dinner, give me compliments, pay for this, that person may stick around for awhile but sooner than later they are going to get tired of the one-sided relationship and leave.  Thank God that He never gets tired of us and is gracious, compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, even when we selfishly come to Him.  But once you get a bigger picture of God’s extravagant love for you, you come to Him just to be with Him, you find pleasure in doing what pleases Him.  I’ll be honest I’m not to that point yet, where I know, like really deeply know, God’s extravagant love for me.  I’m open. 

Hearing God’s voice is interesting.  Many people (and I do this too) come to God saying come speak to me in some big booming voice and open up the heavens and show me what to do. But it should look like this and God you should say this and give me this. Sometimes God does big things like part the waters or turn water to wine but most times it’s in small subtle ways that He speaks.  

Let’s bring it home—I’ve been praying that I can connect with some of the girls here.  It’s been a lonely week as I’ve seen some new friend sub groups starting to form but haven’t felt like I belong to any of them. I’ve left all I’ve known to move overseas..my amazing family and friends where I’m so loved and supported to an unknown place and people.  It’s caused me to completely run to the Lord for affirmation and my worth, yet realizing He’s called me to be in a community of people. After praying that I could connect with three specific girls here that I have a few things in common with, within a few hours of that prayer I was able to have long conversations with both the girls—and the thing is THEY initiated the convo’s. If you know me at all, I’m a huge quality time person and loving sitting and getting to know people on a deeper level which is exactly what happened tonight. I know God is intimately involved in every aspect of my life—whether it’s showing me the next step in life or simply showering me with new friendships on a lonely day.  God is wrecking me and I’m so open to all He has for me. It’s so challenging but so good. 

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