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To The Ones I Love..The Ones I Leave

My heart is being pulled in different directions….

I love my city
I love my family
I love my friends
I love my newly formed community group
I love the places I get to volunteer
I love my church
I love my cold winter runs
I love my favorite coffee shop
I love the life I have here at home

This whole process has been quite the roller coaster though as I prepare to move overseas to do missions.  Excitement. Anticipation. Wonder. Support. Preparation. Waiting on God. Trusting Him to provide the finances and resources I'll need. Sadness with leaving.  The closing of a chapter. Some days I wake up and think what the heck am I doing? Ha! Reality has hit. I'm leaving in 17 days. 17 days. This is happening.

There's always the question of what will life look like for the ones I leave behind? Their lives will go on without me.  They'll learn. They'll grow. They'll fall.  They'll get back up. They'll love. I miss their weddings and the concerts they'll go to. I'll miss their half marathons and the baseball home opener. I know I'll miss them and they'll miss me. It's just a bittersweet reality that I'll soon be leaving so much of what I love. My life is about to be drastically different.  What makes me smile is knowing that all those people and places will be here when I return and I'll get to connect with my peeps some when I'm away. But tonight I want to tell each and everyone of you..you have my heart, my love, my prayers, my support. While I'll miss you terribly, you'll go with me everywhere I go because I have you in my heart. Ya ya..that's cheesy but it's true.

It's been amazing the support I've received from everyone of you the last few weeks and months..even from the team I'll be serving with as I've gotten connected with them a little bit over the last few weeks. I am beyond excited for the next journey God is calling me to.  Beyond excited.  I know we're gonna have a jolly ole' time. I'm going to learn so much. Grow. Serve. Love. Be challenged. I'm ready to follow God's call and while that requires I give up some things I really love, I know He will more than provide what I need in this next adventure.

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